It means nothing. Smoke and mirrors. I love him. How can I turn my feelings around so quickly? How can one person decide to utterly ruin me? I sob so much my face stings from the salt from my tears. I am exhausted. And all of this could not have come at a worse time. Sometimes I leave the house after the kids go to bed so I can drive around and ugly cry in the dark with no one around. Now I have this to deal with: my one true love betraying me in the most disgusting and public way possible.
I feel sad. Oh, do I feel so sad! I feel abandoned. My best friend, my number one person has lied to me. Who is he? Do I even know? Every job is dependent upon an unsoiled reputation. What was he thinking? I do not fault any other person except my husband. Marriage is a choice, every. On the days I hate him, on the days I want to run from him, on the days I get approached by some hot dude on instagram luring me with trips or money or whatever the hell else the slimy people do. So yes, marriage is a choice on the bad days.
And on the good days marriage is easy and beautiful. My heart feels for you! Your beautiful family will prevail, whatever the outcome. Thank you for your openness. You are one of my role models! Much love Meghan. Wish I could just give you the biggest hug and we can cry together while binge eating your favorite stuff to eat then go to a place and release all your anger and just break a ton of stuff or light it on fire.
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Thanks for opening up. It must be hard to have your private life all out in the open. Thanks for being so real and raw about your feelings and the situation. Sending you lots of positive energy for your son! So hang in there and eventually you will get your answers. As to everything else…. My heart breaks for you and your fam. All I can say is.. I am praying for you all as family, praying for healing, hope and forgiveness.
Make sure to take care of yourself. Go stay with babies at a friend or relatives house for a while to get away from the crazy. Do things that make you happy. Hang in their my friend. Prayers and love headed your way. This same thing happened to me last week. I was rocked to my core. I thought we were so solid and never dreamed it would happen. I know your sadness. I hope you can find the strength to heal your heart. Much love. Hmm…you presented yourself as very narcissistic and pushed him into having kids he did not seem to really want! Sorry but it does take TWO to cheat, one to push the other person away causing them to look elsewhere for the needs to be met that are not being met at home!!
I despise women that cannot see what they did to contribute to the situation. Jim should have just dumped your ass before he let you bully him into having more children that he did not really want! You put him in an unattainable situation. He had a mental affair NOT a physical one!! Instead of just blaming Jim for everything, why not look in the mirror long and hard and look past your narcissism, and see how your behaviours and attitude and treatment left something unfulfilled in jim that he looked elsewhere.
Wow, just wow! Judgmental much? I hope you never have to experience her pain. I hope you never let a strangers words cut you deep. I also hope she never sees the hate you have in your heart! I hope you find the joy your are obviously missing. Maybe one day you can find some joy and compassion for others. Mums the word. This is how a sham marriage plays out.
You were in it for the attention and the money. Sad indeed. Stronger than all of this. This is hard…. Every day. One day this will all be behind you it will mean you survived. How brave, real and vulnerable of you to be so candid. You have expressed yourself so eloquently and collected. I am so very sorry this has happened to you, but you seem to be approaching it healthily and honestly openly too, even when you do not have to be and owe NOTHING to the public.
Hang in there, pray a lot and keep being you — a good and loyal person. I am praying for you and your family and your son, Hart. One day at a time…. Ignore the mean, snotty comments from haters. It hurts, but you know what you have to do. Be strong for your babies. You have it in you.
Dig deep. Remember to take careful of yourself. I recommend therapy. For you. My opinion about Jim is that he not self-sabotaging. Take care of yourself, stay strong. Prayers for you. Feeling your pain and betrayal. You said it. I know it.
Been there. So very very sad and disgusted that another one of us has to go through this crap. You will go through all the phases but know you did nothing wrong. Exactly this. There is none to be found. Also, as you already said this reflects not on you, but sadly on him. Head up sweet girl. You will get through this. Sending you all of the love. Philippians Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Praying for you. Be wise in those you listen to and surround yourself with. And you will be stronger and wiser. You are such example of love. Humans suck and we are in desperate need of our savior. Meghan my heart aches for you and the children…tears are flowing as I write this. One step, one minute, one hour and one day at a time, this all will pass and the reasons for the bumps will become clear. Hang in there, you are not alone.
I agree with everything you said, except one thing. He paid her off to protect himself. Under the circumstances nothing he did was for or about you. You deserve better but only you know what is best for your family. Best of luck. I have been with my husband for 28 years, 5kids and 12 grandbabies. My prayers are with you sweetie and may God give you the strength to move on and feel whole again.
I found out my husband was having an affair just days before we celebrated our 20 year anniversary. She blasted him and insulted me on social media…the kiss of death. I never had a chance to deal with this privately. I chose to forgive him and we have been in counseling. Prayers for you and your sweet family. We did not deserve this! Thank you for sharing your story. It will help so many. Best wishes to you…you deserve a happy life with a faithful husband.
My heart is with you, I am so sorry that you have been forced to address such a personal situation in the public. You are brave for writing this. Meghan, You my dear are an amazing wife and mother. You will get passed this, get counseling for yourself and your marriage. You will also get through this also. I pray you and your husband can get through this. What you decide to do is your business, do not let anyone judge you or your husband. I feel so bad for you and your children. Just try to protect yourself and your kids, please. He broke the vows not you, and nothing you could have done would have changed the outcome.
You deserve loyalty and most of all respect. Do not settle for less than you deserve. All the best. I agree. Praying for you girl! This is so hard.. You can do this! Please consider going to a marriage counselor to help you work through this. Now, add this abhorrent behavior of your husband, can put you in so much despair that you need help to work through this. Rely on your family and friends to help you as well. It takes a village to be supported by loving people who want the best for you.
You WILL get through this. Now that your fans are praying for your continued strength and guidance during this very upsetting and dark time. Sending love and hugs to you and your precious babies. I am so very sorry that you have to take this on because you deserve better. You are strong but when you are not find someone to take over and be weak. Care for yourself until your strength comes back. Facing this head on is incredibly brave and one day your children will know what an amazing, strong, committed, brace mother they have.
I am reaching out because I heard your son may have neurological issues. I want to help you and get him back on track as soon as possible. You may think I am crazy but my own son was vaccine injured and presented with neurological issues and motor issues as well. Healing his gut with advanced TRS spray one spray daily genetic testing.. Obviously had to stop vaccinating him. The more you can do before three the better! But please seek alternative advice! I know California is impossible with vaccine laws but your kids health is your number one!! Antivaxers have gotten us in the trouble we are in today, they put everyone at risk.
Wonderful advice Breanne! So glad to hear others speaking out. I know many that have taken this advice with amazing outcomes. Keep speaking up all the facts are out there if people will research and not let the cognitive dissonance get the best of them. Prayers for everyone!
Yes you are crazy. Only on the anti-vaccine BS! Diseases that were once eradicated are coming back but EVERYONE in jeopardy because they were led to believe vaccines caused problems that are simply not true. SOME may be allergic to a vaccine, just like some are allergic to milk. To believe everyone should stop vaccinations is criminal and very reckless! Your information an therapies is so good and so helpful! I pray every single helpful therapy available will help Hart as well as your child. To have a sick child is heartbreaking.
For that, I am so very sorry. Satin is a horrible factor in every corner and Jimmy made some terrible mistakes. I do think if he would have wanted to have a full blown affair with total sexual activity he would have. He could have. Thank heavens he had even a tiny bit of discretion to not let it go any further. Be weak, be sad, be angry, be lost. In the end this will make you stronger.
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When the time is right and you truly feel like a partial human again find forgiveness! Not for him, definitely not for him but for you. Then make your decisions. I am So sorry for what you are going thru. You are incredibly strong to share this publicly and I hope Those awful magazines and social media trolls let you grieve and try to heal and repair your marriage in peace.
Keep moving forward and know that many of your fans are cheering for you from afar! From the bottom of my heart. You did nothing nothing wrong. I hope you can remember these things when things are tough. But you are in my prayers tonight and your son. And your family. Sending all my love.
Megan I feel so bad for what you are going through. You are a very strong woman. I love the way you present yourself. Your the real deal. I agree you have been taken advantage of and you deserve better. Only you know what you need to do and no one else. Your a beautiful woman and I hope your able to get pass this.
Take a break.. Is love enough? Being betrayed by your spouse is almost impossible to forgive. Give yourself time to heal. Your family, friends and fans are behind you all the way. He needs a good smack upside his head.
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Stay strong…. May God lead you on your road to forgiveness. Meghan love yourself and move on with or without Jim. YOU matter most. You will survive. One day at a time. Baby steps is all it takes. There are no words. I am just sorry that you are hurt and going through this. Marriage is work , hard work. I have been married for 23 years and have 2 beautiful boys. Look into your faith and allow your friends and family to be there for you.
You will get through it. Maybe not today, tomorrow or next week. But you will find a way. God does not throw at you anything you cannot handle. You got this. Meghan: Jim has always treated you like absolute dirt, and you know it. It was a shock to the system for all of us to see how callous he is towards you, how uninterested.
Now, you know better. This is unbelievable. Where is your empathy for someone in such pain? Be supportive or be quiet. Who the hell are you to me, and how is it you get to tell anyone how to react? Back off. I stand by my comments. Lola, I commented something similar, too. I hope she does was best for her and her 3 children. You know? One time I misunderstood a comment you made about formula and your explanation was so kind.
I totally had misunderstood. We expected a loving person because of who Megan is. Who Meghan is? Meghan was already a very accomplished woman before she met Jim. She is from an exceptionally old money family who got their money the old fashioned way by earning it. Meghan had a very high paying job in the medical sales field earning into the hight 6 figures. Her brother and sister are very accomplished — not to mention she has relatives here in St. Louis who are prominent and respected attorneys. The St. I completely agree with you. It was uncomfortable to watch him disrespect and simply humor her conversations, all the while eagerly waiting to get out of town and back to his job in St.
I felt sorry for her because his dismissive manner to her was blatant. You got this girl,! Rise above you are strong and God will never leave you he will guide your thoughts and help you always. Now, take care of yourself so you can be there for your kids, sending you blessings! Your testimony touches me to the core. I believe there are so many reasons a person may cheat. Not all of them mean they dont love you. But does that even matter. You are strong, Im not sure I am capable of that level of forgiveness. You are strong, you are brave, you are honest.
Love and hugs to a beautiful lady xx. Meghan, my heart breaks for you. You are a wonderful woman, with a heart of gold. I pray that you take time to heal and do what is right for your family. I hope that you have a tremendous support system to comfort you and love you. I cannot even imagine your pain. Your bravery and honesty at this time is a true testament to your character. Many prayers for you, Hart and the rest of your family. With every struggle comes a blessing. I know how you are feeling, been there before.
You will need time to heal and trust again and he needs to be patient with that and also fight for you. So if you two truly love each other, you can overcome this in time and come out stronger in the end. Praying for you and your family! Focus on your healing and kids!!! When I was 36 weeks pregnant with my daughter, I found out my husband had been doing the same thing. Of all of the traumas that I have been through including losing my mom at six years old and skin cancer in my early 20s, this one has been the hardest to heal from.
Although it has been over two years, I still have my moments. Thank you for describing the feelings that are so difficult to explain and I hope you find the healing you need. Thank you for this post. As someone who has gone through the same thing this is touching and beautifully written. I was holding back tears at work. You are brave and strong. Let yourself ugly cry and listen to all the angry music. I hope your heart heals over time. I choose to stay and admire your attitude as well.
Love is sacred. And you deserve the strongest of loves. Take care of those wonderful babies and yourself. You will survive and come out on the other end of this even stronger! I will pray for you and your family every chance I get. Why did his other 2 marriages fail? I heard the voicemail and it sounds like you. This triggered PTSD. My husband of 19 years had an affair with my best friend. I left. It was the worst and the best thing that ever happened to me.
You are free now. You know, you know. Spread those wings and soar above this. Freedom is intoxicating. You did nothing wrong. Be a survivor. Sending love and strength. Go live your truth. I read this on my 17th wedding anniversary as my husband who has struggled with addiction abuse for years is now living with someone else as I keep our family going.
I have filed for divorce because now is the time to put ME and my girls first. So sorry this happened to you.
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Sadly,it is life. You need to decide what is best for you and your family and if is giving him another chance. My advice marriage counseling. This is not an easy situation. Their is no solution or a way to make the trust, security and even the love not be in question. Doll is one thing you never do is blame yourself. Do not be sad be strong. So sorry for you Meghan. Loved watching you on Tv and have been following you on Instagram. You definitely need to give yourself the time to cry and think and feel.
You have every right to feel the way you are feeling right now. My heart breaks for you, but you have the loving hearts of your children, family and friends with you. Take deep breaths and know you will survive this. Just know you have a lot of people praying for you and sending you lots of love and support. My heart truly goes out to you and your children. Best wishes always. Meghan, You are strong! My baby has a neurological disorder. It is stressful and worrisome at times.
My little boy is 20 months now and is nothing but the light of our lives. He is doing great. You will smile again!! God does not give you more than you can handle. I love your Instagram post And your family. Your a strong woman and you will come out of this stronger. What I see is a loving plugged in Mom and a devoted wife. Keep your head held high and pour your love onto your children. Praying for Hart and all of you.
My heart breaks for you. Thank you for being so open and telling your truth! I learned through the Grief Recovery Method that telling your truth will help to rid yourself of your hurt, pain and grirf anything you want different better or more.
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Thinking of you!!! My comment will probably catch some heat. Not Only was text messages involved nude pictures was involved and to make it worse a masterbating video. Meghan you are one beautiful person. At no time should anyone EVER have to go through this…and in the public eye nothing can be worse. I have watched you on tv and followed your Instagram and find you to be such a devoted mom and I hate to see such a beautiful person have to hurt this bad. On another note…once they cheat the odds of them doing it again is pretty high proven fact Now you have to make the decision on what your next step will be and I can guarantee what ever it is we will all be here for you!!!!
Look who is judging. Some people will give straight up honesty as difficult as that may be. What Jim did was slimy and scummy and low-down!! He DOES have a history of cheating on his other ex-wives!! She should become strengthened by adversity not victimized by it. I pity him for throwing away a good woman. There is no harm in calling things out no matter how ugly. What he did was foul! I admire you and all you stand for!!! You are a amazing mother and wife and I feel for you, but ultimately you will do what you need for yourself and your family.
I had this happen to me. My girls where older. I wanted to keep my marriage together, so I forgave. Then it happened a 2 nd time. My oldest daughter discovered it on his old phone he gave her. With help this time. I thought we where headed for recovery this time. And 2 years later he left me for another woman. We are divorced. I feel your pain all over again. I am so sorry you are going through this. Stay strong. I was exactly like you. Wanted the same things in my life and marriage you wanted. Reading this really hit home.
Meghan, I am so sorry this happened to you. It did me as well. I moved to Scottsdale and thought he was my world, so it was worth the move. You nailed it , something is wrong with HIM. I know he loves you, mine loved me. But he could not stop himself from hiring high end call girls, drinking Crystal off of them…as the pics I found showed. Or spending extravagant amounts of money at 5 star hotels for a night of God knows what. But HE did this…not me and I survived. You will. No, mine was not in the media, but it was hard nonetheless.
He made the mistake, you do not feel ashamed. Your beautiful children will be better in the long run as you will now be an even better mom to them. He hurt you to your core, but you have 3 amazing gifts now that will be there for you foever… whether he is or not. AND you will be thankful it happened as you will be an even more amazing person and Mom because if it.
Us midwest girls are tough. I am from Tulsa, OK. Im so sorry Meghan. I have been through that with my first marriage and realized so quickly how one person throws it away for themselves. He chose to disrespect you and continued to make that choice. I always told people marriage is you in an underwater cage with your spouse going shark sighting. The sharks will always be there, slimy and ready to devour your life. Do you stick with your partner and enjoy your safe life protecting each other?
Did your partner let a shark in to devour you? Did you both leave the door open and let people in for a feeding frenzy? Your husband is your protector.. He didnt protect you from the sharks when you always did for him. I hope you can get through it but in my experience I always resented the other person even when I thought I was over it.
Im sad for you. God bless you and the beautiful babies you have made through all of this. You are such a strong woman, not only with words but with actions. You hit this thing head on and did not try to sugar coat it, make excuses etc. You will heal, this will be put behind you one way or another. Keep it together, you are doing awesome.
You can and will get through this. Meghan you have 3 beautiful children Aspen, Hart and Hayes!!! Men can be so gross, they never have enough!! Be good to yourself and the kids and move on! Megan Your marriage and your family are worth fighting for. Do yourself a big favor and reach out to the trained and skilled professionals that can help you and Jimmy through this…one day this will be so far behind you and you will be proud, happy and thankful you sought guidance from the right resources.
We are human and not infallible. Oh Meghan you are no victim, this is simply karma returning the favor to you for cheating with Jimmy while he was married to his second wife. You knew his character and chose to marry him anyway. By the way you do too care about your new car, building your new mansion and all the diamonds you have because you brag about each one of these things on Instagram!
You need to snap out of the pity party your in and get real. Of course he had a physical relationship with this woman plus many others. Once trust is broken you can never get it back. If you really want self respect and trust find a new man. Once a cheater always a cheater.
I commend you wholeheartedly for writing this for all of your fans out there worrying about you. No one can tell you what to do, as you will figure this out. They discuss this all the time considering what she went through.
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You will get through this, and whatever you decide, you have support from fans and your amazing family. Cry, be mad, whatever, but thank you for sharing this. I can only speak for myself, but I assure you there are tons of us out there worried about you, and beyond thankful you wrote this to check in.
I hope you can find peace. You are a braver woman than I to hope the marriage survives as I would never be able to trust my husband again. My mind would go crazy over every late night he was working etc.. However this story ends, I hope you count your many blessings to help lessen the sting of this betrayal. Oh Meghan. I hope no matter what you choose to do there is resolution at the end of the journey. Love you for sharing your true, raw feelings. Sending love hugs and positive vibes. Hart and your hear abs family t are in my prayers. My heart goes out to you and your beautiful children.
Meghan, I have been following you for years. I have cried reading this as I have watched you go through your ivf journey and your struggles. My heart breaks for you! You are beyond gorgeous and a wonderful mom!! So sorry! Sending you lots of love. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. Hopefully this will help others in similar situations.
Never ever doubt your worth. Thinking of you xxx. I put up with more than I should because of it. I am so sorry to have read this and you are so brave to have written this. I love your Instagram and think you are amazing. Meghan, My heart goes out to you. You are a wonderful woman. And I am just heartbroken for the circumstance. For you to come out to be so real and spew your heart to anybody who would read this is amazing.
And unfortunately because of your celebrity status, you have to. And it Shows a woman of tremendous strength. I really hope that you guys can heal your marriage. I hope that Jimmy has a repentant heart and truly feels horrible for his actions. And not because he was caught! Incredibly embarrassing and something that could be thrown in the face of your children for lifetime due to social media.
Whatever you Choose to do. Is your choice. And living in orange county just brings it even closer for some reason. Weird, I know. I wish you nothing but the best. And I really hope you guys sort this out for the best. I am so sorry. Life is hard. But love is forgiving if you want it to be. I am so sad for you. I really thought he was smarter.
So stupid and unnecessary. The fallout is so hurtful. I know the pain and sadness you are experiencing.. You will not have that again.. God bless you and those babies.. I love your story.. You have this!! This made me cry. Hugs to you. Oh Meghan! Prayers to your family and your Son. Hope you get answers soon. I went thru the same thing Megan. The same with my husband.
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Sick and shaken. I understand temporary insanity now, totally get it! Keep your head up, it does get easier. I trusted him with everything in me!!! And he totally betrayed me! It really did break us. And I kept blaming myself! Meghan, I have been in this exact situation. Truth is you cannot heal your marriage unless he takes responsibility that this IS cheating. You also have to allow yourself time to go through all of the emotions you will be angry, vengeful, sad, lonely, feel like you love him, hate him, and angry again.
I always tell people give yourself time before making your decisions bc right now you arent in the right frame of mind. He has to allow you to do and feel whatever you need to in order to heal. Praying for you as you heal. Oh honey. You are a very strong woman and the answer is yes it can recover from this but that is up to you. Know your value and your worth. Dear Meghan This is your call. Honestly you have to take time to think. Take care xx. In The Pink.
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